Atheism = People without the balls to be nihilists

It'll probably shock some people that I'd love to be an atheist. It'd be awesome. I'd screw over everyone. I'd love it. Atheism would be so freeing for me.

You see, part of the hell and problem with being a Christian is having your hands tied. Being a Christian means that not only do you know that that guy over there wrong, often monstrously so, it prevents you from killing him. It gives you the knowledge to hate the man, but not the means with which to finish him off. Love thy enemies. There is no harsher commandment.

Doing good is a bitch. It's a theme that crops up again and again throughout the Bible. Job laments that the evil prevail- usually really prevail, we're talking the guys who own white mansions here. Jesus Christ Himself was crucified for the temerity of being, well, Good. Gandhi got the shit beat out him a couple of times. So did Martin Luther King Jr. Stalin shot a lot of people.

I'd love to be an atheist. And none of this pussy New Atheist shit, either. I think atheists these days don't have any balls. Why declare " Oh, there's no God, we're all just clever monkeys in this meaningless, mechanical universe", and then claim there's some meaning, some "Good", to it all? What a cop-out. Be fucking honest. Go all the way. Be a serious, honest-to-Nothing atheist, a serious "fuck all of you and the society you are built on" atheist.

Don't try to pretend that you can get rid of that troublesome God, but then keep Him around in the form of "Good for Goodness' sake." Secular humanists, I'm looking right at you. There's no scientific basis for doing good. Even claiming that it's evolutionarily useful (which it is) doesn't mean we, as rational, self-determining beings, should have to do it. Why do I care if the species survives? I'm going to die, no fucking way around it, and I don't really care what happens to the rest of you.

Trying to maintain some idea of Good is just another way of saying God, and it impresses nobody. All it is is atheism clapping itself on the back for getting rid of that pesky God, then turning around and worshiping Him in a new form. It's still religious worship. I don't think religion will ever disappear- not just because I believe God actually exists, but because most atheists worship Him even if they do it all ass-backwards.

There's no way to scientifically test "Good". Or "God", for that matter. These are issues that cannot be found to exist, period. They belong to the realm of the spirit and the mind. They are the Great Maybe's, the potentials and possibilities that go beyond mindless science and technology. They are our souls. Atheists love to claim against God on the basis that science hasn't found him yet, but then do Good because it's "Good" to do so. Ridiculous.

I believe, personally, that it's just atheists who don't want to be associated with God right now (because our society has some really, really negative connotations with that word right now), but don't want to go against society's principles and, you know, have free will and the whole shebang. They'd much rather cower down and simper, doing "good things because you should"- or more accurately, because society, which is heavily influenced by Christianity, told them it was good, so they scamper off to go do it. They have no free will- they mindlessly accept what they were taught in school. It is good, so I do it. No reflection. No critical examination of what they believe, or the implications if you decide to kill off God, as Nietzsche once put it. Nothing.

I almost wish they would. It would make for a much more interesting world.
But back to why I want to be an atheist. It would be so freeing. Do whatever you want! Want that girl over there? Rape her! Want some money? Steal it! Why do you care? We're all just clever animals anyway, and there's no metaphysical justice waiting for you after death. If the police can't find you- and as the son of a police officer, I know that the police too often don't- then you are safe, secure. Or, in fact, go past that- go beyond that. Be clever with it.

Become a world traveler. Hurt people in other countries, because the beauty of the international capitalistic system is such that people in other countries- poorer countries, capitalists say with a bit of horror- actually don't matter as much. The police in this country have trouble keeping up with the crime- what are the police in Third-World Countries, too often plagued by the predations and corruption that capitalism brings, going to do about it? And if you travel often, you become that perfect criminal- the one that crosses borders and gets the cops tangled up in so much red tape that they will never find you, snug in your burrow of crimson adhesive.

People do this every day. We call it capitalism. Rush Limbaugh did it. He went to another country to have sex with a young girl who wasn't of legal age, and to do drugs.

Capitalism won, and so the worst idea anyone has ever had in the history of the world has taken over the planet and is killing it, bit by bit. Everyone else is just meat for capitalism's machine- the rich people are there to consume, the poor there to produce. It's a predator/prey cycle worse than anything nature could come up with, even at her worst.

You know, I think that may be the point. Capitalism is destroying religion. It's not making anyone any better. We are moving towards atheism because Capitalism denies any emotion, any connection between people (obey the machine). Capitalism crushes faith.

God, what I'd give to see socialism win.

But! I hear atheists argue. What about humanism? Can't an atheist be ethical?

I ask, why? Why?

There is no higher reason in atheism. That's the point of atheism. The definition- no God. It doesn't even matter what you call what you believe isn't there- the point is that it isn't there. And I'm not going to pretend that not getting the most kick out of my life- by giving in to every impulse, by screwing people literally and figuratively, wouldn't be fun. It'd be a blast, actually.

I believe that ethical atheists and secular humanists are playing a game of pretend with themselves. God bless them for the work they do, but they are lying to themselves. They aren' atheists.